Clearly, it's the movement...

So yet again, I'm up in the middle of the night. Can't sleep, can't get comfortable, although... Not exactly sleepy...

Any time I mention to someone that I can't sleep through the night, or even more than a small handful of hours at a time, it's always, "oh, is the baby keeping you up?". I suppose every other pregnant woman ever must be beyond irritated at her baby's movements. I don't know.. I can't really figure that one out.  I find the movements comforting... 'my baby is moving, I'm fine. We're fine. I can breathe...' I can't be the only one who feels this way, surely. Maybe the irritable ladies are just more vocal?

No, I don't get kicked awake. Sometimes it's the weird ass dreams that completely throw me for a loop, but sometimes, I just can't get back to sleep, no matter how relaxing the pouring rain is outside my window. Sometimes, like tonight, it is the bathroom trip, followed by the kitchen trip, followed by a 'why won't my mind turn back off?' sort of situation. The most frustrating part of that being that before this pregnancy, I've always been able to clear my mind at will, like some kind of Zen master. Falling asleep at will used to be my super power.

I know it has to be God awful and beyond frustrating for women across the globe to not be able to sleep, when we clearly need it the most, but I think it's the body's way of prepping us for what's to come. Making sure we don't get so used to a solid 8-9 hours straight (hahahaha!!) of sleep, so that it's easier to wake and tend to the new screaming life that will need you as desperately as you need them. Even if that's not the case, that's what I'm going to believe.

I've been up nearly 2 hours. If I'm lucky (and I rarely am), I can squeeze in another hour of sleep before the alarm goes off at 6... But I'm thinking I may make like a Hobbit and settle in for an early second breakfast...